ROBERT PATTINSON is my heater

i've been addicted to robert pattz since i watched TWILIGHT. he's so hot..... SUPER HOT

i feeL Like he's my heater, my bLanket. he keeps me in heat every time i see him. he boiLs my bLood, my nerves, my veins.. and i feeL Like a voLcano ready to erupt, just for him. haha

LoLs.

if god wouLd Let me see him, i'LL grab him, hug him and kiss him... mwwwwahhhh

hahaha

i never reaLized that he was cedric diggory in harry potter untiL my friend toLd me, and i Love him more for that because cedric was my crush. i even cried when he died in HP. so sad :(

i've been searching about him for a week now, and watched every singLe video of him in youtube. hahaha..

oh my~

haha.

and now, i've been Listening to this certain song because of him, and been watching it everyday.. hahaha..

it's a spanish song, sung by ricky martin and i did everything to know it's titLe and it's meaning in engLish. wahaha. and i succeeded. *woohhhoo*

i am reaLLy an ADDICT. haha

this is the video -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUPHbSMz2Qk

it's titLe is Te extrano, Te olvido, Te amo which means, I miss you, I forget you, i Love you..

hehehe.. Love it ^_^

unbearabLe

i can't stand not taLking to him whiLe he has a Lot of probLems.

i guess i wiLL aLways be there for him no matter what happens especiaLLy if he has a Lot of burdens inside him. i want to be on his side whenever he's down. i want to be there for him whenever he needs someone to taLk to. i want to make him smiLe whenever he's LoneLy.

so, i taLked to him, i asked him about his Life and how was he and everything ended up weLL.

we're reaL friends after aLL. ^_^

i guess, i just have to accept the fact that i'LL aLways end up going to him and comforting him. ^_^

if i were a boy..

there's another song that captured my attention. and this is dedicated to aLL the girLs who feeL rejected and being pLayed by their man..a song by beyonce knowLes..

If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

bad haircut in piandre

i had a very tiring week Last week, too much work and i was happy because our office has Wii, my boss bought a Wii Last week for the empLoyees to have fun(atLeast) and yesterday, which is saturday, we pLayed Wii, after work... yiihhheee.. my office mates and I pLayed tennis for 5 hours that's why right now, my right hand is aching and i can't even stretch it but I'm stiLL gLad because I can stiLL type in my keyboard. hehe

anyweiz.

I decided to get my hair done at piandre, an expensive saLon here in the PhiLippines but I wasn't happy about it, it doesn't Look good and after so many years, I have experienced again this "bad haircut" stage.. hhaayys.. I'm gLad that i can stiLL ponytaiL my hair so it won't be that obvious.

I paid a huge amount just to get myseLf disappointed.

what can you say huh?!?

i Look Like a baLL with hair, haha. LoLx

but atLeast, i'm happy with my new shirt because i bought a poLo in jag before i had my hair done and i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo and suuuupppperrrrrrrrrrr happy with it, it's a checkered poLo, a combination of coLor red and orange(?, reaLLy don't know) haha..

btw

it's reaLLy CUTE. ^_^

it's just Like this shirt aLthough this shirt is from bobson ^_^

hehe. anyweiz, it's been aLmost a month since i write here in my bLog, i guess i just don't have the time to write in aLL of my bLogs.. hahaha

I have a Lot of bLogs.. hhaayys.. hihi

ciao! =D

smart people gone crazy!

Here in the Philippines, most of the people that went crazy were the peopLe who used to be the smartest of their cLass, or the best of their batch.

I just don't have an idea why most of them gone crazy, then one time, my friends and i had this Long conversation about just everything and we happened to discuss things about "insanity".

They toLd me about peopLe they know that gone crazy.

One of my friends said

"I know someone who was good in math and science. He used to be the best in his cLass. Now, he's aLone. His famiLy abandoned him because he's crazy. He just stopped talking to people and started taLking to pLants. Then one time, I saw him watering his plants and talking to "them" in his garden and he was hoLding a big bush knife. I just looked at him and he saw me...

The Last thing i know, I was running for my Life whiLe hoLding my pants. My pants was kinda big so it was hard for me to run.

*yeah, she was teLLing her story with fuLL of emotions. big eyes with a horrified face*

He ran towards me whiLe swaying his big bush knife. I was reaLLy scared."

It was kinda funny, all of us kinda Laughed about that story but if you were going to think about it, it's really a life threatening. It was like a psycho movie.

*my imagination comes in*

You're alone in a dark pLace, then you saw this big-buLky-wrestLer-Looking guy with a big bush knife, preparing himseLf to kiLL you!! The onLy thing you can do is to run and save yourseLf..

wwaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

*wwhheeew, that was something*

So there was it, we paused after taLking about it and agreed that those are wasted gift. You see, if they weren't crazy they could have been SOMEBODY. An inventor, a famous mathematician or scientist, a good professor and a lot more.

*sigh*

I was thinking, what if it's me?? what if I was the "math and science" genius guy? am i aLso going to be that crazy?? or have that gift and stiLL be normaL?!?

They say, some smart people become crazy because of too much thinking, they think too much about everything and their minds are functioning 24/7.

( I see! Maybe, that's why sometimes some smart people are categorized as "weirdo" - * sorry for that, just taLking about reaL Life situation* )


So if i am as smart as those people and that's the reason, then...

I can see my future now!..
..
..

I am in an insane asylum talking to my "HOLY SHIT".

haha

but...

I am NO EINSTEIN, although my mind is functioning 24/7 and thinking about a Lot of things too much.

So i'm still lucky, because i have all the reason to be crazy EXCEPT for being GENIUS.

hahaha

OR maybe, if i have that gift. My bLog is aLL about science, poLitics, math and other "mind-aching-topic".

You see, i'm going to post here about how science and math collides, computing every single activity that i do. How fast do i taLk? how many seconds there is, going to our bathroom from here??

And, I maybe discussing how economically poor we are yet how beautiful Philippines is and how rich we are when it comes to natural resources.

Well, enough of it. I don't think i Like discussing those stuffs. ^_^

I'm just glad that I AM NORMAL, THOUGH WE'LL NEVER KNOW! hahaha,

I might become a future psycho.

hahahha..

NO, seriousLy.

I'm just gLad I'm a normaL girL.

A 21-yr-oLd girl...

+ who has an average mind (i think so! haha, i reaLLy hate mind-aching-topics)
+ who is Living carefree in her home sweet home
+ who has a nice work ( I'm a fLash deveLoper, actuaLLy. haha) and just Living simpLe..

whheeeww..

I LOVE MY LIFE.. ^_^

wordpLay & pronunciation ( is it a hoLy shit?? )

I was in a bus, tired, exhausted.. just want to reLax, untiL the conductor came and asked for my fare, I gave her my coins *damn it!*

You know why I'm mad!?!

because, my bus fare is onLy 18 pesos! and everytime she's the conductor and i give her 20 peso biLL, she doesn't give me change because she aLways teLLs me that my bus fare is 20 pesos! damn it, whiLe everyone eLse (other conductors) is asking for onLy 18 pesos, so i'm reaLLy pissed. If you're going to compute it, she aLready had a Lot, as in a Lot.. from me.. haha

so, this time i have to be the star of this game, i gave her an exact amount of 18 pesos and she didn't compLain! see?! how corrupt she is!?! damn it..

and what makes me more mad?? it's because, i don't want to spend my coins!! eeerrrr..

I save aLL my coins because every end of the week, i put it in my piggy bank!! I want to fiLL it atLeast, at the end of the year.. hrhrhr.. I'm reaLLy pissed!

Then, I heard her asked the other passenger

"where you going!?! in YO-EN?? "

*oh yeah yo en, yo Like yo-yo-yo wazzup wazzup?! conductor in the house yo!* haha, it actuaLLy means UN

Then i heard her again..

"kaw post opes?!" *which reaLLy means, post office*

ok ok..Let me cLarify this, i'm not Laughing at them, nor discriminating the way she speaks. It's just that... hhmm... i don't know, haha

I'm not good in pronunciation aLso so there's nothing to worry, haha. I have a hard time pronouncing F and P, not onLy that, i pronounce things in tagaLog, LiterraLLy.

I guess i need to have my own dictionary and pronunciation book.

when i say fath, it means PATH, when i say hif it means HIP, when i say PAKYU, it means FUCK YOU! haha..

I remember saying DABID SALON, when it's supposed to be and REALLY SHOULD BE DAVID SALON, haha. Bidyo is for video, whiLe Manyak is for maniac. haha

I don't know why but it's just the way I am, that's the way i pronounce things.

Then whiLe thinking those things, (yeah, I was thnking these things whiLe i was on a bus going home..)
* see how insaneLy and patheticaLLy aLone i am *

New topic, just entered my mind..

It's funny how peopLe pLay with words. Sometimes it's nice and funny but sometimes it just sucks, it's irritabLe, hahaha.. or maybe, it just depends on how you say it and aLso depends on "who" say it.

PLaying with words, adding unnecessary words in a word to make it, cooL?? Like the word HOLY SHIT, what's with hoLy shit!?!.. I remember someone, speaking and his words were fuLL of hoLy shit! it's Like, every after 10 words, he wiLL say that "2 damn words".

Who started it!?! Why did he/she caLL it hoLy, is this hoLy shit as hoLy as a hoLy water?, or did she/he caLL it hoLy because it came from a hoLe of a person as hoLy as a pope or as a saint?? or is it just a short term of a hoLe fuLL of shit?, so it's reaLLy "HOLE-Y-SHIT"??

It just sucks right?! then other words foLLow, hoLy cow, hoLy meat, hoLy hoLe..

hoLy hoLy~!!

damn you!

haha..

find my post nonsense? yeah, that's how Life is.. haha, especiaLLy when you're bored and has nothing to do..

you just want to taLk and taLk and taLk, but unfortunateLy, no one's interested and everybody around you is so busy doing their own stuffs, so what wouLd an ordinary-feeLing-smart girL do!?!

write in her bLog.. hahaha

an introduction

hi everyone, I've been blogging since 2006 and i already have 5 different blogs.

One is for private, where i post all my secrets and my dirty deeds. *grin*

Second one, is on my friendster, unfortunately, i don't have friendster anymore.

Third one, is my multiply blog where i post all the things that's been happening between me and my friends, just my natural and ordinary life.

Fourth one, is my http://heartsmindsandhands.i.ph blog, where i post all my heart's desire, and the things that's bugging my mind.

And, this is the fifth one, I decided to create another blog because i got inspired by one blogger, i saw her blog in blog of notes and i saw that she has many followers which only means one thing.

She's interesting. ^_^

*i hope you won't be mad for this one * ;)

and her way of telling her story in her blog is kind of the same on the way i tell mine, but mine is written in Filipino, "tagalog" as we call it, because, I am a Filipino who is trying her hard to speak and write in english.

My multiply blog is good because people are reading it, they find it interesting but i don't feel satisfied, and my hearts...ph blog is kinda lonely, no visitors, it's a loner, an outcast, a very lonely site.

I'm looking for something..

I want a site that can be accessed by anyone and can be read by strangers. I want people to read about it and to comment about my chaotic life. I want others to be inspired by my stories and I want others to inspire me as well. ^_^

So here I am,

an adventurer ( a young lass who loves to travel and to experience new things )

an attention seeker *yeah right! loves to be the center of attention but hate it the same time

a frustrated writer *i have written different poems and stories, and everything is hidden in my cabinet, my writings are just as frustrating as i am